In spite of being late: Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010!

The year 2009 has been are very hard year for me. I've seen laughter, pain, joy, sorrow, and confusion. I've been up and I've been far down. I have questions that I will never get the answers to. I've seen the best souls taken and the worst grow stronger.


Despite it all, I am thankful for a few things this year. Most of all I'm thankful to have my kids. They mean the absolute world to me and nothing less. In July I was blessed with the birth of my son, Colin. Despite having 7 months of crazy pregnancy hormones and 5 months (and counting) trying to understand them, I wouldn't change it for the world. Sure, my little man cries and cries and cries until I'm on the brink of tears. I'm tired and a little worn, but his smile alone melts me to the floor. At 6 months old, he finds sneezing hilarious. He is starting to sit up on his own like a big boy. He's even starting to sleep through the night most nights. He has the most kissable toes like his sister. And boy, is he a chunk! He's so handsome and I love him to death.


Kellan is growing into a beautiful, wonderful, confident little girl. Although I still try to sneak in some cuddle time with her like she were still my little baby girl, she has gotten so big. She has become the best big sister to her baby brother. She adores him every waking moment they have together. She started preschool with the big kids in September and it's made a world of difference. The child that never left my side is eager to start circle time on school days. She makes the most beautiful projects for Mommy to hang up at home. She's confident in all that she learns. She's made new friends. She was invited to her first real birthday party that wasn't for one of her cousins. In fact, she's been to three. Not only was that a learning experience for Kellan, but Mommy is now learning the true meaning of being "Kellan's Mom" and seeing where I fit in the outside world. She's potty trained. The child that I thought for sure would leave college in diapers now picks out her own big girl panties. She's starting to have a sense of humor and create her own jokes. She says the word "booger" clearer than ever. She loves to have her nails painted at all times, and if you call her she'll show you her pretty toes through the phone.


My resolution for 2010 will be to find myself again. Although I'm confident in my abilities to be a mother and carry out my duties as such, I need to find who Allison is again. Only time and patience will tell.